Wednesday, November 14, 2012

30 Days of Thanks: Grace (Zemja Sojourn)


This is a cross-post from my personal blog, Zemja Sojourn, and The 30 Days of Gratitude Project.

This past August--on the heels of college graduation, moving, starting a new job, and divorce--my sister opened up our intra-office classifieds.  She saw a dog.  His name was Charlie.

He was a nine year-old Australian Cattle Dog, and was in the care of a staff member from a different hospital in our system.  He had belonged to her elderly father, and had recently made the trip from Washington State to Minnesota.

Leslie said, "This dog is supposed to be my dog."

Maplewood State Park -- October 2012

We went to meet his caretakers.  When they said she could adopt him, she got tears in her eyes and stood up from her chair.  I remember vividly that she was wearing a black and white, short, vintage dress--with her black hair and red lipstick, she appeared to have stepped out of a movie.  She crouched down on the floor, her skirt swirling, and enveloped him in her arms.  Charlie closed his eyes, and was hers.

That is a memory I will always hold.  It was moment out of a dream.  Out of a glass globe--except instead of snow, there would have rose petals.

No one could have known that Charlie had adenocarcinoma, and that in three short months, he would be gone.

What I am thankful for today is grace.  That deep, profound understanding that can only stem from a person's inherent fabric.  My sister gave Charlie an incredible gift.  She selflessly opened her heart to an older dog, without regard for the possibility of such a staggering and fast loss.  She left herself unguarded.  They went for walks, had picnics, took car rides.  She read him Shakespeare and took him hiking.  They sat outside coffee shops together, and enrolled in training class so they could be better partners.

In the end, as in the beginning, the choices weren't about Leslie.  They were about Charlie.

It would have been easy to step back from this writing project today.  To say there is nothing to be thankful for.

With eyes closed, I tell you truthfully: there is everything to be thankful for.

Saturday, November 3, 2012

Eleven Years Ago Tonight

Today was difficult day for me...it is the first birthday that all the Moon pups are gone.  It has been a bittersweet mix of deep gratitude for the years of joy they brought us, and how lonely the days without them have been.

I miss the puppies very much.  Eva, too.

Eva and her babies